One night, I got a text from an old classmate, “Hey, how are you”. I said I’m fine, but after his next message, I was literally not fine.
“Are you available for a relationship with no strings attached?”. This was not what I expected from him, but for a second, I recalled all the memories of our time together in class, he never showed any interest in me, so how can he possibly ask me for a relationship? I tried to read his text again and this time, my eyes get stuck at “no strings attached” what the fish?
How can he ask me for something like that? It was a direct question for a physical fun relation but nothing to expect at all, how dare he?! I replied with the longest text ever recorded in the history. And well, he had to apologize obviously after all the words I used for him and his family and his freakish thoughts. I felt relieved but couldn’t sleep well that night.
Now after 10 years of that incident, I realized how honest he was to his feelings because with the same intention, I’ve got a thousand texts from different people but proper words were never used as he did. Is this what a relationship is? This is the question I’ve asked myself a thousand times but never got the answer.
Relationships can be tricky, at times you’ll feel the coziness and strength together while there will be times when none of this will be available but you have to stand there tagging yourself “in a relationship” when deep down you know that this is not the one.
But you have to deal with it, you have to make ways without disturbing your comfort or maybe sometimes you have to get out of your comfort zone just to make things work. I know it’s not easy but darlings, let me get this straight for you. You can’t start things over and over again with a new guy from the very beginning just think about it and let me know if you find some better way then compromising.