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This Newly-Married Pakistani Girl Lost Her Unborn Child And The Way She's Feeling Now Is Heartbreaking!

This Newly-Married Pakistani Girl Lost Her Unborn Child And The Way She’s Feeling Now Is Heartbreaking!

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It is said that marriage is a good deed, but what makes it perfect is the presence of a new life, generated by the couple, in the shape of a son or daughter. Every parent in this world looks forward to the day their child is born, however, not all are as lucky.

That is what happened to one Pakistani couple, who tragically lost their unborn child, something they dreamed of together. The girl, who writes under the handle @TheMewlyWeds – an account dedicated to her and the husband, broke the news to their followers.

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She revealed all the details in a message, which reads as follows: “This Women’s Day I choose to talk about myself and the new dimensions of womanhood life has shone at me – almost blinded me with, rather. 

The past two months have been harder than most of the hardest days of my life. So much so that I almost titled 2019 as the Year of Loss — almost, because then I remembered every day could be new if I wanted, and it would be highly unfair to the rest of the year and my ability to battle it. 

Considering the kind of darkness my biological mother relentlessly shadowed my life with for the first 17 years of my life, I had always been terrified of becoming a mother myself. However, like every nice surprise, motherhood knocked at my door unexpectedly. 

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My joy, though, at finding out, made most of my fears evaporate right away. I smiled ear to ear and felt like a queen. I also watched my husband turn into an even more beautiful man, after finding out he was going to be a father. We started dreaming about our baby, window shopping for baby clothes and thinking of names: Mahira and Ahfaaz. 

Ahfaaz meant protector, and like his mother, the baby would become a strong, resilient protector of the rights of others. A fighter and peacemaker at the same time. 

But soon after that came the knowledge that I had miscarried, and that it was my time for my body to let go of whatever it had built inside me for my baby. The ultrasound showed that it was a two-month pregnancy but there wasn’t even a heartbeat, and just like that I lost my unborn child. 

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My body, however, refused to let go of the remains on its own. I was then made to take 18 pills in 3 days but in vain. I finally found myself laying in the hospital bed, admitted to being operated the other day. There was no physical pain, but a sharp sense of loss that can not be explained. 

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Everybody called me strong, but I did not feel it. I had a minor surgery done under the general anesthesia in a comfortable hospital. Where’s the strength in doing what HAS to be done, where’s the strength in having no choice? We’re women and we can often be prisoners of our own bodies and most of our losses are inevitable. 

As a woman, today, I don’t feel strong at all. I am just empty and existing.” 

This tragic, heartfelt letter, speaks about a mother’s heart, emotions and what could have been. We wish the couple all the best for the future, hoping and praying, their wish of a child comes true, soon. To all the mothers who have gone through the same, stay strong!

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