It took me too long to move on. When I’ve finally moved on now, there’s literally nothing left in me. Not because I am not with him anymore but because I feel so foolish to have been with him when he was not worth it at all.
I feel so silly when I remember how many times God wanted me to see his real face but I was so into him that I chose not to (intentionally).
Now, I daily drag myself to start my day. I literally feel like a lost soul and I wish I could have realized everything earlier so it wouldn’t have consumed me all like this as now. I fight with myself and I don’t know if I will ever be able to forgive myself. I don’t want any girl to go through what I’m going through. I do pray daily and yes, it does lessen my pain but alas, the guilt is still there, always there. It doesn’t seem to go away…
Girls, if you feel that a guy isn’t worth it, don’t wait just take the step. He’s not the last guy livinonin this planet so don’t give him a second chance because if they do it once, they will do it again. And lastly, you’re worth much more than that. Always remember, you’re a precious soul.