All that glitter is not gold! How true is that?! To prove that statement, all those people who are considered to be slathered in gold, come upon the ground and tell people that’s it’s not always what they see. All these people with shiny outer lives, face some shattering at times. These people too give up on life and run out of reasons to live. All these celebrities, social media influencers, famous artists who people look up to…
Feeha Jamshed is big in the industry and people have known this name in BIG BOLD BEAUTIFUL words. People have seen her success, her work of art but not many knew that just 3 years back, she was bedridden and was paralyzed from waist below. She didn’t know and not even her doctors know what was happening to her…
The raw and radiant Feeha
Feeha’s dance performance with Mahira got went viral all over the internet and she took out the time to cherish that moment and expressed her feelings and experience that took a toll on her life in the past years. She had Trigeminal Neuralgia but she got control over it after a series of procedure. But after a certain period of time, she experienced throbbing pain in lower part of her body and no doctor in the country had any clue what was happening to her…
Feeha wrote on her Instagram
This post is somewhat an emotional summary and very close to my heart.. Many of you didn’t know what was happening with me, I wouldn’t blame you I didn’t understand what had happened with me till recently.. 3 years ago, I started lose control over my body. I had Trigeminal Nueralgia, after a series of procedures it got under control. Thought that was the last of my worries. Not long after that my lower part of the body mainly my hip and lower back started to give away. I was going through these unexplainable excruciating pain, that had no diagnosis, 1 MRI to another and juggling like a ball between the best doctors this country had to offer no one had an explanation to these pains.
I was unable to walk so I started limping my left leg. Since I have been a workaholic for the past 10 years, working is what I knew best. I stopped taking medication that slowed me down. And slowing down meant I was a ZOMBIE. I was taking every medication that pharma had to offer. Out of them steroids were the real killer. Which meant I had to be on anti depressants too. Decided to go cold turkey because I couldn’t let my work suffer. The only thing that kept me going was work. And that too became my healths downfall.
That limp eventually led me on the wheelchair for 8 months. Now my battle was not only at work but inside me. My mind. I couldn’t let that go out of my control. There were some very very dark days for me. In order to win the battle I had to SURRENDER first. Surrender to everything that didn’t make sense, surrender to what the reality was, surrender to my negative thoughts in order to rise from it. I still didn’t have a diagnosis and Now I had to fight the biggest fight of my life with myself FOR myself. I have AUTO-IMMUNE DEGENERATION. There is no cure for my hip joint but my spine is manageable This post is an appreciation to how far I’ve come. From a wheel chair to a stick to dancing. As long as my good days are more than the bad ones I’m winning each moment.
I couldn’t have gone through this without my main man @nadirzia, my family Tj Mama @majamshed@mjamshed@mahamj Lastly the person I need to thank after God is MYSELF. I couldn’t have done it without ME. ??
She does not stop working even after she was in a wheelchair even after she gained some energy when she left all the medication that was not working for her. She got off the wheelchair after 8 months and lastly when she declared that her spine is now manageable enough, she ended the note with great gratitude. More power to you girl! More love and strength sending your way. 🙂
